“... that we could be baptized simply because we want to wash ourselves clean of the need to understand.”
I love this perspective. I have waffled in my faith for a third of my life now (Doubter’s Prayer was a rope that I clung to during a particularly rough go; I’m a doubter by nature) and never felt worthy enough--or certain enough--to be Baptized. I want to believe, but have always felt like an imposter during any Christianity schtick. It’s hard to speak that language and not feel like a fraud. After all, how could one just DECIDE to dump all the eggs into the supernatural basket upon which your eternal soul rests without a mountain of evidence?
But simplifying it like you did, accepting uncertainty as one of the only certainties, is such a beautiful possibility. Perhaps the first step toward clarity.
Just figuring out how to get in and see the comments! Haha Thanks for sharing your journey. It is certainly hard to use this language, especially if we grew up in it in a way that was damaging. Maybe we can just dump all of our eggs into the void and let them float down the river. Maybe we can just be reverent, in whatever way makes sense to us? I don't know. I've just been sitting in the silence a lot and on the other side of that silence I get an unshakeable sense that whatever G*D is....loves us. :)
Would so love if you share readings related to feminine perspective in Christianity - agree that it has been missing and this is something that drew me further into spirituality/ oneness concept of God and a bit away from Christianity as I saw it presented, especially while I was in college years. Though, while I was at Duke, a Divinity professor told me that some Episcopalian theologians consider Mary (Mother) as the fourth and feminine aspect of triune god.. and that strikes as interesting. Regardless, I don't see much use in assigning gender to aspects of god, but like thinking of god generally as embodying both masculine and feminine energies in divine balance. Still, very interested in seeing more feminine influence in Christianity.
I read some incredible stuff on this from Julian of Norwhich this morning...about the Mothering of G*d. Really beautiful. The Sethians considered the Holy Spirit the Mother. I guess if you have four it's not really a trinity anymore? haha I don't know. Glad to hear from you, hope you are well and if you're back in Jax these days, swing through the Theatre some time would love to have tea and hear about life.
Wow - "Just as God is our Father, so God is also our Mother.
And He showed me this truth in all things, but especially in those sweet words when He says: “It is I”.
As if to say, I am the power and the Goodness of the Father, I am the Wisdom of the Mother, I am the Light and the Grace which is blessed love, I am the Trinity, I am the Unity, I am the supreme Goodness of all kind of things, I am the One who makes you love, I am the One who makes you desire, I am the never-ending fulfilment of all true desires." (Norwhich)
I am well and I'd love to catch up. I love tea and hearing about life so that will be nice, I'll swing by sometime and glad to see you writing on substack :)
“... that we could be baptized simply because we want to wash ourselves clean of the need to understand.”
I love this perspective. I have waffled in my faith for a third of my life now (Doubter’s Prayer was a rope that I clung to during a particularly rough go; I’m a doubter by nature) and never felt worthy enough--or certain enough--to be Baptized. I want to believe, but have always felt like an imposter during any Christianity schtick. It’s hard to speak that language and not feel like a fraud. After all, how could one just DECIDE to dump all the eggs into the supernatural basket upon which your eternal soul rests without a mountain of evidence?
But simplifying it like you did, accepting uncertainty as one of the only certainties, is such a beautiful possibility. Perhaps the first step toward clarity.
Thank you for sharing this.
Just figuring out how to get in and see the comments! Haha Thanks for sharing your journey. It is certainly hard to use this language, especially if we grew up in it in a way that was damaging. Maybe we can just dump all of our eggs into the void and let them float down the river. Maybe we can just be reverent, in whatever way makes sense to us? I don't know. I've just been sitting in the silence a lot and on the other side of that silence I get an unshakeable sense that whatever G*D is....loves us. :)
Stick around, lots more to explore!
Would so love if you share readings related to feminine perspective in Christianity - agree that it has been missing and this is something that drew me further into spirituality/ oneness concept of God and a bit away from Christianity as I saw it presented, especially while I was in college years. Though, while I was at Duke, a Divinity professor told me that some Episcopalian theologians consider Mary (Mother) as the fourth and feminine aspect of triune god.. and that strikes as interesting. Regardless, I don't see much use in assigning gender to aspects of god, but like thinking of god generally as embodying both masculine and feminine energies in divine balance. Still, very interested in seeing more feminine influence in Christianity.
I read some incredible stuff on this from Julian of Norwhich this morning...about the Mothering of G*d. Really beautiful. The Sethians considered the Holy Spirit the Mother. I guess if you have four it's not really a trinity anymore? haha I don't know. Glad to hear from you, hope you are well and if you're back in Jax these days, swing through the Theatre some time would love to have tea and hear about life.
Wow - "Just as God is our Father, so God is also our Mother.
And He showed me this truth in all things, but especially in those sweet words when He says: “It is I”.
As if to say, I am the power and the Goodness of the Father, I am the Wisdom of the Mother, I am the Light and the Grace which is blessed love, I am the Trinity, I am the Unity, I am the supreme Goodness of all kind of things, I am the One who makes you love, I am the One who makes you desire, I am the never-ending fulfilment of all true desires." (Norwhich)
I am well and I'd love to catch up. I love tea and hearing about life so that will be nice, I'll swing by sometime and glad to see you writing on substack :)